I’m one of those people who constantly doubts myself. I make decisive actions and don’t regret my choices, but I do doubt my capabilities. Do you do that?
Isn’t that crazy? That I come up short in MY OWN MIND. Me. The one person who should love me the bestest doubts me the mostest! (Yes, not the best words, and yet, I know you get it.)
When I have a pep talk with myself, it sounds like this:
Me: No, I could do better.
Me: Stop. What more do you expect from yourself besides your best?
And yet, who determines that? Who determines my success or failure?
My reviews have been great. I love the positive and negative ones. I’ve had tremendous reviews from both ends of the spectrum and I’m grateful for all of them.
And I have to tell you that… I used to believe that. I used to believe that other people’s standards determined my happiness. Determined my success or failure scale. But I just saw a panel that was being offered in a pretty big class and the author stated that she was making 3 to 4,000 dollars a month – and that is success.
And contrary to what a person in my RWA group said, I started making this BEFORE Bookbub. Although, I did have tremendous success with my BB ad (and I continue to do so because it’s an amazing service). I want to make sure that is clear. (An aside, at the time, her comment really bummed me out. But now I can look back and say, that’s okay. I know she’s coming from a strictly traditional supporting POV and I’m a hybrid.)
I’ve been doing this for so long. I’ve seen the “one hit wonders” pop up and I know secretly that they have worked their butts off and we’re just now hearing about them – they’re making $20k+ a month, or whatever – which is awesome.
But before, I used to focus on what they were making and how I wasn’t measuring up. Now, I compare myself to myself. Where I am now compared to last year and the year before and the year before and the year before – because I’ve been doing this a LONG TIME – and the year before is gradually getting better and better.
That is true success. To me. My continued learning. My continued development. My SELF GROWTH. My level of gratitude.
You know what? I think my favorite part of this entire job is the people. I meet so many great people. I get to talk with my newsletter recipients (my Survivors) and we have some great discussions.
I get to meet so many people on FB. I’m working toward including Twitter in my relationship building, but I’m focusing mostly on Newsletter and FB because I understand them, the ideal and theory behind them. I can’t wait to start the conferences and meeting people that way.
But to everyone who has a part in this crazy ride of mine, I want you to know you ARE APPRECIATED.
I’m grateful. So grateful.
Thank you. Such simple words which don’t even grasp or convey the depth of my feelings. My emotions that well inside me until I tear up. I’m so grateful.
I’m grateful for you.
Thank you. And I hope you feel a little bit better wherever you are in the journey you’re on, in whatever industry or path you’re following.
Because you’re doing awesome. You’re amazing. And we can’t run someone else’s race. We can only run our own. Alongside each other.
What do you define as success and have you shared your gratitude today?
Nathan Rourke lost almost everything he holds dear. What he still has, he’ll do anything to keep. His Montana ranch is not just a place, it’s his home and what’s left of his family. He’s holding his own, making it work.
But then high-school sweetheart Emma reappears … and suddenly this cowboy’s life is as rough as a ride on an untamed bronc.
Emma Benson left high school without a word to Nate, rather than admit she was too ill to go on. Now she’s desperate to prove that she’s more than the disease that keeps her dependent on her family and friends. And she craves just one more chance at love.
Nate embodies the promise of a life free from the confines of her small world. But will loving her mean he must give up his own freedom?
No matter which path they choose, this young couple will be battling the odds.
Chosen using Random.org, Zeus and Nike from Amanda win the signed paperback.
Thank you everyone so much for contributing. I think this has been my favoritest (it’s not a word, but I’m an author lol) post ever!
Thank you! Thank you!
I have had the privilege of getting to know my Survivor Newsletter members. This last week I asked them to send me pictures of their pets because in Book #2, Forbidden Trails of the Montana Trails series, Jareth and Cyan have some integral moments between them concerning pets.
Here are the pictures I received – there are a LOT of great pictures in there. At the end of the posts, is the winner for the signed copy of the Forbidden Trails paperback.
All pictures were sent with permission to post. All photos rights retained by owners of pictures. The intents and purposes of this post with pictures to share the friends of Survivor Team and a contest.
To be continued in the next post! I’m at my photo limit…